Break, November 11, 2014

the 18 March 2016 in Uncategorized

Hello, 

we are in Magadan, this marks the end of our route in Siberia. It is now the hour to ask itself questions. I'm not entirely satisfied with the way I travel. These last months by bike did not give me complete satisfaction. In fact, what is the most painful of all, it is to no longer have time to take the time, that's the problem in the end because everything was based on that, but now with all these visas, well I am obliged to respect the timing !!!!! It all goes wrong. That's 4 years I prepare an expedition that I am not sure even any more to want to make. Where I am there, what I want, how I want to continue, that's the question that's happened to me as I arrive at my first ocean, how do I want to face the new continent ? And this expedition then !..  I am lost there in fact, I feel like so many things, there is still much to do, to discover and share. I feel I no longer have time for anything, even your messages I do not have time to answer correctly, I might just poorly organized. It is therefore time to put everything on the table, to ask the right questions and to leave in the best conditions. Holidays are therefore needed . 

3 weeks ago everything was still well in my head, the expé was on the right track and for practical reasons of logistics, it turned out simpler for me and my team-mates that I return in to France myself to get my things and finish to complete the final preparations for February. I had thus cancelled my plans of this winter in Kyrgyzstan and took a return ticket for Moscow then, it is by bus that I had planned to return slowly in France by visiting some capitals of Europe, Riga, Warsaw, Prague, Berlin … But then a few days later I noticed that one of my teammates was not ready for this expedition, so this completed my mental fatigue, exhausted from all this organization, my mind exploded ... . Today I am thinking hard about many things, but do not worry motivation to travel is still there, but I 'll have to think at some length before accepting any team-mate with me, even traveling alone ... I have no regrets about the different partners I have had, but with the exception of one, I have never been in tune with them, their motivation, commitment, mindset have always been very different from mine, many of them being actively questioning their lives, then I have the feeling of being a mother or a tourist guide to them, which obviously does not please me at all ... This is how it is and it is my fault, I must now learn from my mistakes : either I start to choose my team-mates instead of foolishly accept those who propose to me, either I travel alone.

For now, since I already have my tickets for Moscow and Riga I stay on my plan, so I'll return to France this winter, I do not know how long, maybe to work a little so to make a supply of money for the future, because once on the American continent I do not think of returning in France before a few years. And for the expedition , well I think my decision is made, but it is not so easy to give up something that you have so much prepared , but well, all these searches will probably not be lost there are always profiteers who love the chewed work. Everyone finds his motivation and pride in different places, so goes the world, nothing is wasted.   

I regret nothing because I learnt a great deal of things, the preparation is already a journey  which makes you vibrate and enriches you … Here is for the moment, I take off on November 1st for Moscow, then I shall take the bus for Riga where I shall arrive on the 3rd. I think of arriving in France at the beginning of December, to me raclettes, tarts and fondue !.. 

Nights

Budget

Hello, 

we are in Magadan, this marks the end of our route in Siberia. It is now the hour to ask itself questions. I'm not entirely satisfied with the way I travel. These last months by bike did not give me complete satisfaction. In fact, what is the most painful of all, it is to no longer have time to take the time, that's the problem in the end because everything was based on that, but now with all these visas, well I am obliged to respect the timing !!!!! It all goes wrong. That's 4 years I prepare an expedition that I am not sure even any more to want to make. Where I am there, what I want, how I want to continue, that's the question that's happened to me as I arrive at my first ocean, how do I want to face the new continent ? And this expedition then !..  I am lost there in fact, I feel like so many things, there is still much to do, to discover and share. I feel I no longer have time for anything, even your messages I do not have time to answer correctly, I might just poorly organized. It is therefore time to put everything on the table, to ask the right questions and to leave in the best conditions. Holidays are therefore needed . 

3 weeks ago everything was still well in my head, the expé was on the right track and for practical reasons of logistics, it turned out simpler for me and my team-mates that I return in to France myself to get my things and finish to complete the final preparations for February. I had thus cancelled my plans of this winter in Kyrgyzstan and took a return ticket for Moscow then, it is by bus that I had planned to return slowly in France by visiting some capitals of Europe, Riga, Warsaw, Prague, Berlin … But then a few days later I noticed that one of my teammates was not ready for this expedition, so this completed my mental fatigue, exhausted from all this organization, my mind exploded ... . Today I am thinking hard about many things, but do not worry motivation to travel is still there, but I 'll have to think at some length before accepting any team-mate with me, even traveling alone ... I have no regrets about the different partners I have had, but with the exception of one, I have never been in tune with them, their motivation, commitment, mindset have always been very different from mine, many of them being actively questioning their lives, then I have the feeling of being a mother or a tourist guide to them, which obviously does not please me at all ... This is how it is and it is my fault, I must now learn from my mistakes : either I start to choose my team-mates instead of foolishly accept those who propose to me, either I travel alone.

For now, since I already have my tickets for Moscow and Riga I stay on my plan, so I'll return to France this winter, I do not know how long, maybe to work a little so to make a supply of money for the future, because once on the American continent I do not think of returning in France before a few years. And for the expedition , well I think my decision is made, but it is not so easy to give up something that you have so much prepared , but well, all these searches will probably not be lost there are always profiteers who love the chewed work. Everyone finds his motivation and pride in different places, so goes the world, nothing is wasted.   

I regret nothing because I learnt a great deal of things, the preparation is already a journey  which makes you vibrate and enriches you … Here is for the moment, I take off on November 1st for Moscow, then I shall take the bus for Riga where I shall arrive on the 3rd. I think of arriving in France at the beginning of December, to me raclettes, tarts and fondue !.. 

4 commentaires

  • Michelle says:

    sa fait plaisir de lire de ton voyage, aussi les dificultés… je comprends les problemes. voyager en velo c’est tres fatiguant. Je suis allée une fois de Munique a St. Jacques en velo, environ 2750 kilometres et apres je n’ai plus utiliser un velo pour un an et demi!
    J’aime bien voyager aussi, j’ai visité déja 39 pays et il me manque encore de faire le tour du monde. Aujourd’hui j’ai recue mon passeport, alors je suis libre pour voyager.

  • Caro says:

    ohoh bonne route route alors 😉

  • Sonic says:

    Vraiment excellent ton récit. On a l’impression d’être avec toi. Tes retours nous font comprendre que ton projet est loin d’être facile.

  • Jérôme says:

    Alors, au final? Les voyages forment ils la jeunesse?
    Le tour du monde forme, sans aucuns doutes.
    Je pense, en effet, comme dans la vie conjugale, qu'il vaut mieux prendre le temps de bien connaître son (ses) compagnon(s) de routes avant de partir dans l'aventure, si on la souhaite réussie!
    La bonne bise affectueuse.

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